Christmas Pain

First, I have no concept of the loss of a son or loved one. Never been there yet so it would be without excuss to say I understand. I always find it good the way your ministry puts the rubber to the road. Real life is real life and many times real life is not pretty, even when we want to put some nice pretty Christmas paper around the story. This may be too real and feel free not to print what I am about to write and please know that I mean no disrespect to our Lord.
I understand why people like to see pictures of the sweet baby Jesus, and I understand what they are trying to say by wearing a cross around their neck. But if they really want to express what God was willing to do, maybe they should wear a dirty dipper around their neck. The wise men come and Joseph says, just a minute, Mary is changing God's diaper. The Parasees come to Peter to talk with the Lord and Peter says, just a minute, the Master is behind the bush and ? What must the angels in heaven been thinking? Sweet Baby Jesus yes, but God this is too real for us angels. Is this too real for us so we hang pretty gold crosses around our necks? Besides, we should not be clinging to the cross, but to the empty tomb. Now we're talking victory, Oh death, were is thy sting, Oh grave, were is thy victory. To me this is part of the Christmas story. Now I see how low God came to pick me up. So low that I can hardly bear the thought. I can not understand the Betters loss and I can not understand God's loss to save a sinner like me. This will take eterity. In my minds eye, I can see the giant hole in your heart, but I do not understand. Forgive me. God says, though a mother may forget her child, I will never forget. Will God remember for all eternity, those that do not come to Him, those that are lost ? Forgive me God for the pain that I cause You. Thank You, but forgive me for the Price You paid. Again, maybe this is too real.
Dan